What an amazing week we have had. I can't believe it is almost Christmas time!
Well let me just sum up how fantastic my life was this week. We had a specialized training on our purpose and planning; having the faith to set goals, work as hard as you can to achieve them, and then ask the Lord for help with the details you just can't manage. The example is the Brother of Jared who came up with his own idea of how to light the barges, then went and made the rocks himself, then asked the Lord for the last detail of touching the rocks with his finger. The whole process was necessary not just to light the barges, but to develop the Brother of Jared's faith enough so that he would be ready to see the finger of the Lord. So this week I have been trying to apply what I learned. We planned as thoroughly as we could to achieve the goals we have for this week, and are working hard to get members to lessons, investigators to sacrament meeting, etc. But I have also changed the way I pray. I started identifying exactly what we need God to do--the necessary details that we have no control over--and asking Him specifically for those things, and He responds almost immediately.
For example: With the siblings we have been teaching, I prayed that He would arrange an opportunity for us to talk with their mom because she is NEVER around and she is the only thing holding them from baptism. She works all week, all day. I promised that if He would just give us the perfect opportunity, I would do all I could to follow the Spirit and use it. So on Saturday one of our appointments in that area fell through and we had the choice of where to go. We felt really impressed to go to this family and the thought came to my mind that this might be the only window that their mom would be home this week. When we walked into their house, there she was mopping the kitchen. Finishing up some cleaning right before going Christmas shopping for the rest of the day. The son asked if we were going to read the Book of Mormon together but I hesitantly said, "well...actually we were hoping to talk to ALL of you today", indicating towards the kitchen. He made a face like, "Oh I wouldn't do that if I were you!" And I started to feel a lot of butterflies in my stomach and was really unsure of how I could possibly accomplish this conversation with her. But the promise I had made came back to my mind, and I was able to recognize that God had done his part, and he would help me do mine, and I prayed for courage and the gift of non-awkwardness even though I am terrified, and I took a deep breath and I started trying to small talk about Christmas, work, etc. Finally, whispering another prayer, I said, "We're actually really glad you're here because we've been wanting to ask you some things. We have been teaching your kids, but we really don't know how you feel about it." Which launched her into the best discussion about how her kids have always been really spiritual and have sought this out really on their own, and even though she is strongly Catholic, she will support their decisions. The only problem is, she watched her brother get baptized immaturely and then fall away from the LDS church and she doesn't want them to do the same. If they want to be Mormon that is fine, but they have to be sure about it. She said only time would tell when they were ready (and she is thinking a couple of years, so now we are praying that her timetable can be sped up a little to the Lord's.) She then said the kids really look up to us and she sees it as a blessing. So the conversation ended really happily. We are friends now, we understand one another's hearts, and we have new direction for what to do with them. We gave the son "For the Strength of Youth" so that he can start to live those standards, continue praying and reading, and we even committed him to fast the first week of January so that his mom will see all of his desires and commitment and her heart will be softened. (keep in mind how hard fasting sounds to a 15 yr old boy). How grateful I was that we had developed enough faith to follow our promptings and then recognize the finger of the Lord providing a way for us.
Second Miracle was with a father of a family last night. It was our first lesson with him since he started reading the Book of Mormon 2 weeks ago. He already told us he had a bunch of doubts. As we sat down he started in on how the introduction says that Moroni is resurrected and he just can't believe that we say that other people have been resurrected besides Christ. Thankfully, we have learned not to try to answer people's deep doctrinal questions, rather to let the Spirit do that as they read with faith. So we backed up and said essentially, "The only question you have to decide for yourself is whether or not the Book of Mormon is true. God gave you the Bible and you have loved it and studied it. He knew it would bring you happiness. (Matthew 7:9-11) Now he has given you the Book of Mormon to add to your happiness. But you have to read it with prayer and with faith. Only God can reveal to you the truth of all things. But if the Book of Mormon is true, you have 600 more pages of new things to learn!" He nodded his head and said ok but then started in again on resurrection. We backed up again and shared Alma 32 on faith--how there is a moment when everyone has to decide to believe even when they don't know. Then afterwards they receive evidence that it is true. He said he feels like Mormon is secretive and hiding things, and he will have to read the whole book before he knows. We said, "Ok. We will study your question on the resurrection if you will study the Book of Mormon with prayer and faith." THEN I remembered that in Sunday school that day at the end of the lesson the teacher said, "Well, we just finished the manual and we have 2 weeks left so for the next two weeks we will just be studying and answering specific questions. What should we all study for next week?" And the woman next to me called out "The first resurrection!" So I said to the father, "And next week in Sunday School the lesson will be EXACTLY the answer to your question. And that is evidence to me that God loves you, because He already prepared the answer before you asked." Then we bore testimony of the Book of Mormon and promised him one day he will know of its truthfulness. He agreed to come and jokingly said, "If you can find me an answer in the Bible that others have resurrected besides Christ, THEN I will quit asking so many questions and just read." In my mind I was going to leave it there for tonight because I've learned that trying to answer his questions with logic just doesn't work. Only the Spirit and his own faith can convert him. But then the Spirit whispered to me, "Remember how Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob are gods already? Look up Abraham. Just see if there is something there you can share with him tonight." So I went to the Guia para las escrituras and looked up Abraham. Nothing. So I went to resurrection. And there in Mateo 27:52-53 I saw "Muchas santos resucitaron despues de la resurreccion de Cristo." So I turned there. And it was like light was pouring into my mind and so much clarity and peace of spirit. I asked him to go there, which he did so eagerly, because he generally can't believe we can defend the truth using the Bible. I read it aloud, praying the whole time that I could read it with pure intent and not impede the spirit from touching him.
52 And the a were opened; and many b of the c d e,
53 And came out of the graves after his resurrection, and went into the
a, and appeared unto many.
After I finished vs. 53 he was silent. A minute passed with his eyes moving back and forth. He started to try to negate it by reading it back to me as though he was going to point out the error but then just kept reading and reading all the way to the end of the chapter because he couldn't find one. I just prayed and prayed that he would leave just enough room in his heart for a tiny belief. Oh how glorious it was to see the moment of shock in his eyes...the silence that thundered that perhaps there was something more, perhaps there is a fullness of truth. "Behold, this is my Beloved Son, Hear Him!" He said he is going to study up on it some more and will definitely be at Sunday school.
MISSIONARY WORK IS SO COOL. It is so cool that we are developing the capacity to hear the Spirit and the faith to follow Him, so that we can be instruments in the hands of God to help these people that we love SO MUCH come closer to conversion.
I feel I can truly say that I see the finger of the Lord touching the stones we have presented him and making His commandments to us here in Louetta West possible.
SURE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Think of me every time Feliz Navidad comes on the radio. I am livin' it. OOOOoohhh yeay.
Con mucho amor,
Hermana Carter