Closing Christmas skype remarks:
Dad: Now these next few days
you might be a little sad after talking to us, but just keep going! it will go
away and you will be calling again soon.
Rosie: well thanks....but I really don't think I'll be sad! Sorry......
Weeelllllllll...........this week I kept having all these weird spells of gloominess and homesickness try to settle over me, and I was wondering, "where in the world is this coming from?" and then I remembered my wise father, who is never wrong. But I have been really quite thrilled to realize that I really do have control over my own self. We are free to choose happiness or misery! Spells of gloominess just don't last when I just shrug them off, sing along to "The Lord Is My Shepherd", make my companion laugh, deliberately smile and think about how short is this time on a full-time mission. Sometimes I feel like I am still a baby just discovering the physical world and what it is like to have a body as I discover my own agency and control over my spirit and my own emotions. We were not created to be acted upon or influenced by the shadows of Satan. And I love that.
Rosie: well thanks....but I really don't think I'll be sad! Sorry......
Weeelllllllll...........this week I kept having all these weird spells of gloominess and homesickness try to settle over me, and I was wondering, "where in the world is this coming from?" and then I remembered my wise father, who is never wrong. But I have been really quite thrilled to realize that I really do have control over my own self. We are free to choose happiness or misery! Spells of gloominess just don't last when I just shrug them off, sing along to "The Lord Is My Shepherd", make my companion laugh, deliberately smile and think about how short is this time on a full-time mission. Sometimes I feel like I am still a baby just discovering the physical world and what it is like to have a body as I discover my own agency and control over my spirit and my own emotions. We were not created to be acted upon or influenced by the shadows of Satan. And I love that.
Hermana Hale is getting
transferred tomorrow! It might be a little crazy of a day. Waiting to
find out who your new companion is always takes forever too. My whole life is
about to change drastically. But boy am I grateful to be staying in Louetta
West with these wonderful people. This morning Hermana Hale was lying sick in
bed and she said, "I've been thinking. Yesterday at Sacrament Meeting I
was so sick. And I thought about everything I have sacrificed--my family, my
boyfriend, my health--everything! And for what? And then I saw everyone that
was there at church, and you know, it is worth it, because I
have learned to love more like Christ."
And that is really how I feel.
There is nothing that I would trade for this experience to learn to love God
more than anything else, love others more than myself, sacrifice, obey,
consecrate, and depend on the Lord with all my heart and soul. These are the best
and worst of times. Like Alma says, our pain at times can be pretty poignant,
but nothing is as exquisite as our joy just at seeing some of these our
brethren come a little closer to Christ. (Alma 29:10)
10 And behold, when I see many of my brethren truly penitent, and coming to the Lord their God, then is my soul filled with joy; then do I remember what the Lord has done for me, yea, even that he hath heard my prayer; yea, then do I remember his merciful arm which he extended towards me.
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